My knack for cheesy titles doesnt really go away.
Now with the very wide variety of emotions that I tend to experience, the Mid-Degree crisis was one variant of the famous Midlife Crisis that I happened to experience some time back.
Midlife crisis is a term coined in 1965 by Elliott Jaques and used in Western societies to describe a period of dramatic self-doubt that is felt by some individuals in the "middle years" of life, as a result of sensing the passing of youth and the imminence of old age.
I happened to have felt it in my 5th semester, which somewhat classify as the "middle years" of my college life. The dramatic self-doubt had creeped in all of a sudden and I was getting older, now being tagged as a senior, considered to be mature and "can-ask-for-advice" types by 2 levels of juniors beneath me.
In some ways we all love that time. The time in our grad life when we are being finally heard. But you know, slowly those realizations start creeping in that your time here is limited. That all this fun and tension- free living that you had is soon going to end. Everytime you sit down for a lecture, the walls start closing in on you and you can no longer hear the professor. All you hear are the walls and the windows and the blackboard screaming " the party's over, my friend. Time to move on".
I get out of the class and its no different there too. Notices and posters don't make any sense. Its only alphabets which get highlighted and enlarged, like an encrypted message being deciphered when I look at it. And the hidden code seems to be saying the same thing. Mummies and daddies start pestering you again. Wanting definite answers about certain things. And you thought you had put and end to all that pestering by getting into a decent college. Now I realise that that was just one small 'pehlu' of the story. That I will have to solve many greater mysteries on my own.
I always had a hunch that I would be good as a detective. Atleast, my hunches aren't betraying me ! But the Mid-degree crisis did vanish in another 3-odd months. Till that time I enjoyed hallucinating.
